This week I've found myself completely overwhelmed with feelings of social anxiety and a general sense of falling back into old trends. I worry why this is happening since I've been on my Paxil for a year and a half with no such issues. I don't want to have to go through the grueling process of weening myself off and adjusting my body to a new medication. The thought of this alone sends me into a fit of anxiety. I wonder if my body's given up reacting to it after so long? I've only had a few issues with it such as weight gain and if I miss a dosage, I get very ill. I have a feeling I'm going to have to buck up and take care of myself before it starts to bleed into other aspects of my life again. I need to try and a find a new doctor's office who can really work with me. I think part of my anxiety is the frustration I feel towards the clinic. My old doctor was the only reason I was able to conquer all of this in the first place and without him helping me, I feel a bit lost. It takes weeks to get into the clinic and then nobody seems to want to solve my problems. I'm going to dig a bit deeper into my health care options in regards to my plan and see if I can hunt somebody better down.
Until then, I apologize for any odd behavior. I'm not quite feeling like myself.
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